Trust me…….

Usually I use the phrase “Just trust me” when I really know what I’m talking about. I mean, I do not try to say trust without being able to back it up. Of course, it can multiple meanings. I have never really been shown trust. Everyone that I have known, even family, has shown a certain level of mistrust. I guess I am really good at using that mistrust to destroy any relationship that I get into. Trust is earned, but I do not know at what level I should say that’s enough I trust you completely. That to me is hard to measure, especially when I think I am comfortable something happens to crush the trust. I am in a weird position now to put all my trust in my brothers and sisters in arms. I have to trust they will have my back just like they will trust I will too. I am praying that I will know when the right amount of trust is there with my most important relationship. I think I know what I’m doing….trust me……

Reconsideration……

That I’m even thinking about it is amazing. I did not think that I would be in this frame of mind again, but here I am. This year was supposed to be about healing, but not much is getting done. Well it was but now in an instant pretty much back to the beginning. I do not think that it should be this easy to revert back to this way of thinking. That it was so easy for me to just forget and start thinking about just myself. This can not be good…….

I want to feel like this, but I’ve done enough stupid to last me the rest of this deployment. Why is it that I cannot keep myself from destroying myself from the inside? God, give me the wisdom to keep myself from this behavior. So there will not be a next time. I pray……

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Well, that’s about how I feel right now…….

Great day off……

It’s amazing how one day can make you so proud and then by the end can make you so self destructive. I do not think anyone deserves the destructive party of my psyche, but some how someone unleashes it for me and then I’m left to deal with the aftermath. I hate that feeling and I thought the day started off so well, that’s what I get for thinking…….

gq:

“Simplicity, to me, has always been the essence of good taste.” - Cary Grant

Cary Grant’s Timeless Style Advice

Can’t argue with that!

My job description is…..

So far I’m working for two departments. The first is a mechanic on the Apache, which I went to school for 4 months to achieve. The second is turning out to be gaining as much knowledge about supplies and military forms that command might need during our tour in Afghanistan. At times I feel a little overwhelmed with this responsibility and I know God will bless me for all the hard work that I’ll be doing. I mean I’m engaged to my best friend, so he has done enough right there to last me the rest of my life! I would pay that he gives me the means to take care of my generations to come now and the future. I wonder what the price will be. I know e can handle it….whatever it may be…….

Time to…..

I’ve come to realize that I really miss this blog. So, now I will write a little bit every night. I found this therapeutic before and now I’m in need of some good therapy. I just hope it’s worth the money…..

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Microsoft looking into bringing Skype to LIVE

galaxynextdoor:

Let’s face it, while the integration of MSN Live into Xbox Live was a great idea, not that many people actually use it. Personally, I’d love to be able to use my Kinect to talk to friends and family on Xbox Live but most of them use Skype. MS seems to know this as well and are planning on bringing the popular VOIP service to Live.

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